A few posts back I mentioned that I habitually bite the inside of my lips and cheeks, sometimes so badly that I leave large open mouth sores that take weeks to heal. I said I had no idea why I do this, but that's actually a bold-faced lie. I know exactly why I do it.
I want the blood.
There's no way to make that sound less creepy so I'm not going to try, but the fact remains that I mutilate the inside of my mouth because I have a totally inexplicable desire to drink the blood. I've always, always done it and that has always, always been the reason.
I'm a hardcore skeptic here, so I don't harbour some freakish delusion that I'm a vampire or something, or that I 'need' blood to survive. I don't believe in that shit and I don't have any vitamin deficiencies (like iron, which blood is positively chock full of) that might explain this bizarre compulsion. I would never drink someone else's blood, either, like you see occasionally in 'blood play' fetish material--I think it's gross. But I do it to myself, do it to the point where I cause myself a massive amount of discomfort for weeks, and do it FREQUENTLY.
It's not something I can reasonably try and look up since I know where the internet will point me and it wouldn't be pretty.
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